Saturday, February 20, 2010

Haiti: Things Shift

Even the predawn day began a little differently. The shrill distant stadium cheers of hundreds of Haitian roosters sounded oddly synchronized, as though perhaps they were doing the wave. There were more dogs keeping the beat with incessant, rhythmic barking.



Dogs in Haiti are everywhere underfoot, seemingly ownerless. It is something of a shock, after all the warnings about rabies everywhere, and the need for immediate evacuation if any of your skin is broken, to find one nosing against your leg as you try to walk to the pharmacy area is the day's tightly-controlled clinic-space. All the dogs - all of them - are the lean, feral-looking, arrow-nosed, mottey-colored variety that are never at rest. They nose through trash and scratch at rubble and weave needle-like through the fabric of masses of people. Dogs of the relatively wealthy are just the same, wandering collarless, ribs almost visible through their short mat of fur. They all have the shrill, piercing yapyap that I remember of feral dogs from when I grew up in rural Georgia. There are no woofs, no baying, nothing that we would, if pressed, truly call a bark, which makes me wonder whether they would find our own pampered, exotic, baroque variety of dogs equally odd and a bit disturbing. And these dogs are loved by their owners, who apologize for them, and shoo them out of the way like chickens.



Chickens, too, wander freely in this dense urban city of over 4 million (keep in mind, San Francisco is less than a million). There are no goats, no livestock of any kind, and, frankly, the chickens are bedraggled and pitiful. Actually looking stunted and anorexic instead of just small. Like the dogs, they nose and scratch through rubble, but theirs is a furtive, always at a near panic type of movement, feathers askew as though they haven't had a decent night's sleep in far too long.



We were supposed to be working today in one of the largest constantly collapsing sheet cities (I refused to flatter them with the false-advertising, put-the-best-spin-on-it-possible name of "tent city"). An open area that looks, underneath it all, like it may have originally attempted to be some sort of park - but who knows? It's like trying to imagine the shape and function of a hand from fortune teller bones tipped out of a rattled cup. There are over 2,000 people there, without one single toilet, not even an end-of-a-free-Lady Gaga concert overflowing Portapotty. Crowds of faces glance through a fences railing bars as a woman casually heats a large sizzling shallow hubcap-like metal disc full of boiling oil, preparing to cook, the whole device precariously perched over a propane cannister on top of a waist-high concrete wall as dogs, chickens and children weave and roam behind her. There was a Lombard-street-esque hill rising straight up into the sheet cities, some rare trees on either side of the road shelter prime spots on either side. 2,000 people in there. Imagine what such a thing would be like in San Franscico - Golden Gate park a sea of blue tarp, women who are being raped screaming in the night, and, after a month, disease, dehydration, and diarrhea spreading almost as fast as despair.



But although we sat and stared at it, people boiling past like ants, we never made it into the sheet city. In what seems typical now to me of this type of ever-shifting (even hour-by--hour) relief work, Our organizers were told by the administrators of the area that a new direction was being taken. Efforts needed to be made for Haiti to normalize, for people to return to their lives, and no one wanted this type of sheet city more enshrined. People needed to start using existing hospitals and clinics.



After looking at a situation like that, and hearing that official response, you cannot help but have an urge to guffaw in disbelief. Go back to what lives? Where? On which pile of still-falling dangerous rubble?



But I have to say, brutal as it sounds, after being here only a few days, it may not be completely right, but there may be some truth to that approach for many people here. If only it could be made to work soon enough. The horrors of The Day were just too inhuman. Our gracious and lovely hostess, a principal of a school, confessed that she had not, until we arrived, returned to her seemingly intact and partially functional large home. Until we arrived, the poor woman had spent over a month in a tent (a real tent) on a patch of grass inside a gate in front of her home. She thanked us for helping her walk back inside. She said she could only have done it with all of us there for her, carrying her in with us. All I could think was, but are any of us safe?



Now that we are barred from the sheet mega-city, we need another plan in only a very short time. Our organizers demonstrate yet again how gifted they are at this kind of impossibility. The problem is that we told people we would be there, including a local doctor. People will drag their sick selves, leaving precious bundles of belongings behind, to come to where they think we will be. Word here spreads faster than a tweet.



But there's another gaping need. The amazing duo of Enoch and Jesse have identified a clinic that is losing all its 12 French doctors today, leaving behind 5 Haitian helpers who functioned as nurses, only 1 of whom was an LVN - it's a local clinic that has seen, with the 12 docs and 5 Haitian helpers, at least 200-300 people a day since The Day. The Haitians have been hoping and praying that somehow, some help would appear once the French doctors leave. They are committed to keeping the doors open and seeing the same already-overwhelming numbers, without docs, with only 5 people. Their plan is that they will meet as group each morning and decide how best to treat what may come in, given what they have and know.



So which to choose - the clinic, or the people who we already promised we would be there? It is an agonizing kind of Sophie's choice - all of them needing all of us. We had promised before the trip, for security reasons, before we had to face this kind of need, that we would never split the team up. But we did it. Part of our group went to work with the nurses, and the rest, a larger share because the nurses already had supplies and rooms, went to throw together a site near where we'd originally planned to be.



Who goes where? Because of a touching and gracious modesty among the Haitian women, I have become the sole Pelvic Queen for the vast unfulfillable reproductive needs of the women we see. Since there are female providers among the 5 left at the clinic, I did not go to the clinic. I instead went with the rest of our group to our Plan B site which Enoch and Jesse have found.



Early in the morning, we rumble past yesterday's road and (in only a few hours, since after sunset last night) it's already blocked by 2 women who have erected a mini-supermarket: 2 semi-circles that extend into the road, made of meticulously arranged, tiny piles of damaged fruit that they carefully guard and hover over, adjusting a piece here or there to display it to advantage.

Pool Table Clinic

Pool Table Clinic



Our freshly-indentified SWAT insta-clinic is wonderfully situated - it's a pool hall, next to large, open concrete space packed full of humans and blue tarp. The incongruous pool table sits under rusted, chain-hung pool-hall lights, in a long, narrow, roofed and back-walled corridor with a waist-high front wall, perfect for crowd control.



The problem is that there's at least 100 feet of concrete between us (where we sit idling with our piles of supplies on the bus) and the Pool Hall Corridor clinic. Every single inch of space from here to there is packed with tarp, sheets, children, men, women, pathetically small bundles of belongings - a dented pan, an irreplaceable tiny camp stove, a folded square of tee shirt all visible just at the edge of the first dwelling alone.



The next few minutes are like some bizzare reality show and, even in retrospect, it's hard to decide whether it was cruel or inspiring. Our bus driver plows ahead, a martial arts smoothness to the extreme slo-mo action. Women, men, kids scramble and grab, churning and rolling wave-like away from the massive prow of the bus, leaving behind them a 3-foot swath of naked concrete always between themselves and the oncoming never-slowing bus. There is an odd ballet grace to it, and there are a few stragglers as we finish snow-ploughing our way to the corridor. That's when I see that the stragglers have hastily grabbed twig-tied brooms and are frantically sweeping, trying to make the space look nice for us.



We don't want to waste a minute of daylight, so as they shyly sweep and nod their way ahead of us, we paratrooper in, brawny, well-fed arms toting box after box of supplies.



Intake/triage is at one end. Exit and pharmacy at the other. If you have any claustrophobia, wait until things improve before going to Haiti to do relief work. Even with the wall, a mass of people push forward, beginning to push even against our gun-strapped police security guards.



We are learning and we move fast. Camp beds are simultaneously clanking open, one of our Haitian translators and a Stanford cardiologist moving as seamlessly together as though this were a cath lab. In the rush to make room for us, there is one sad black flipflop and a precisely-draped pair of pale pink panties left behind. Probably irreplaceable. We carefully work around them.



Set-up is hampered only by the pool table owner, who is more jealousy protective of it than the mini-market women were of their fruits. He is very upset when he discovers that someone thoughtlessly left a few ziplock baggies on its massive, tarp-draped, earthquake-damaged edge.



We apologize and roll large blue barrels over, set them upright and put on top a ragged wide sheet of plywood (undoubtedly someone's roof only moments before) to make a pharmacy table.



My Pelvic Palace is in the farthest corner, shaded but airless. We duct-tape every possible loose edge of concealing plastic draped walls.



My fabulous translator and I have, for the first time, a chance and the space to organize our goodies. This woman, MBA candidate, is oddly touched I have put her in charge of all these products. She won't meet my eyes and looks like she might cry when I tell her that she needs, if she doesn't mind doing it, to give it all out - condoms, pads, tampons, birth control pills, that I know when things got crazy busy, or someone was crazy sick, I forgot. She glances at me and I realize that she did indeed notice each and every time I forgot yesterday and I suddenly see myself through her eyes, a careless visitor so rich, so well-off that I could just "forget" something that has such value for a woman who is struggling. I say I don't want to every forget, so could she help me?



We have a smoother, steady day - women with miscarriages from The Day (called, in French, Le Tremblement Du Terre - literally, the name for when the world trembled). I see women who are still bleeding, who still have products of conception inside, a uterus swollen and tender with weeks of hurt. I see a woman who wants to know why her pee is almost green, it's so dark. I ask how much she drinks and am shocked to discover less than a glass a day - that she only pees once a day. But she has access to water, plenty of it, situated as this location is next to a broken water pipe that drips constants. The most alarming thing is that when I begin to earnestly explain (again) that this situation is very "grave," that she could, in fact, die if she doesn't drink, she just looks at me, her expression, dull and flat. Nothing seems to sink in, and she leaves with her bag of goodies and nothing else.



Around eleven in the morning, we discover to our horror the huge problem with our site - there's no toilet. Nothing. People squat in front of the entire crowd of people in one corner of the vast concrete yard. Boys pee in the general direction, kids tumble and play all around. There's no other option - once you step outside the enclosure, there's a steep and sidewalks in all directions. None of which have toilets of any kind. We are getting uncomfortably full, and some of us [read: women] just cannot squat and do it, not even with another woman on the team holding a thin sheet of plastic up. I suddenly have more insight for the plight of the woman who would not drink anything.



We're getting seriously uncomfortable when my translator comes up with the brilliant idea that we pee in the Pelvic Palace, into one of those dark-beige rectangular medical buckets. We each take a turn and I am somewhat shocked when a woman who is a patient, after her evaluation, when she is full of gratitude, insists on carrying it out and emptying it for us. She could not be dissuaded, and thought the whole concept of gloves laughable.



I saw two more women in the afternoon who would not drink - one a young, thin girl with small breast buds. Both of them, also, looked at me with the same flat, expressionless gaze when I explained that in this heat, if you do not drink, you die. I could not begin to imagine what it must take to decide that you can't go on. Dying of thirst, with water all around, is an unimaginable act of despair.



And what do you offer? There is no promise that things will improve. Not anytime soon.



We hurried and hurried and hurried, seeing more people than we expected, all of it going more smoothly than it had before. I was handed a phone in between patients and our organizer, Jesse, was awkwardly calling from a pharmacy where he was trying to buy more menstrual pads. You could hear the embarrassment baking off his voice like heat. "So, I don't know about these kinds - it's not really something I..." "Buy Super," I said, "Or even Super Plus. But not the expensive extra thin ones - we want to get all we can for our money." "So how many should I get?"



I thought for a moment. "All of them."



His voice rose to soprano heights, "All of them?"



So, at the end of our session, my translator decided to give away all the Kotex (clearly the product of choice in Haiti - tampons are more than a little suspect - downright scary to most of the women). A mass of women began to literally run to our half wall. It was the closest we came to a riot. We had to shout for them to line up, to go slowly, that everyone had to take a turn (one of our nurses said, "this is breaking my heart").

Flattened house and local transportation

Flattened house and local transportation




Leaving our clinic space we were, for the first time, surrounding by waving, jumping kids who smiled and shouted the American "HI!" at us.



Each day we have driven past a house that is, foot by foot, falling into our road.



Today it gave way.



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Tiger Woods speech - Steve Saldivar says Woods could be more honest

Tiger Woods' speech of Friday has drawn a lot of reactions. In a video, this blogger asked viewers to give their opinion of Tiger Woods speech. While many wrote their perspectives in the comments sections, Steve Saldivar took the time to make a video-blog. Steve Saldivar says Woods could have been more honest:



More people can make video blogs, like Steve Saldivar did. This, rather than just comments, is the future of media. It's also more fun.

And here's the original video of my view on Tiger Woods speech:



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Oakland Raiders Stadium study approved: minority involvement missing?

The Oakland Tribune reports that on Friday, the Oakland Alameda County Coliseum Authority approved a stadium feasibility study that, if it goes according to form, would lead to a new football stadium in Oakland for the Oakland Raiders and possibly the San Francisco 49ers (although to what degree that's just a 49ers political football lobed toward San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom is the real question).

The question here is, did any one of the Oakland Alameda County Coliseum Authority members question if minority involvement was a consideration in the selection of CSL International for the $125,000 study?

As of this writing, the answer's no. If that hold's up, the Oakland Councilmembers at the very least should be taken to the woodshed over an ignorance of something Oaklanders have insisted on for years.

And regarding the study itself, the Oakland Alameda County Coliseum Authority asked the Oakland Raiders to share in the payment of the $125,000. Oakland Raiders CEO Amy Trask gave this response:


"We have expended resources in evaluating and furthering the concept of an urban redevelopment project, anchored by a stadium. In that regard, we have already engaged (at our expense) professionals to assist with this analysis. We have not heard from the Joint Powers Authority about the funding of a study, so it would be inappropriate to comment further."


Let's get this straight: the Coliseum Authority and the Oakland Raiders are both working on an "urban redevelopment project" that involves football but the Authority did not communicate with the Oakland Raiders on the matter of a feasibility study? What is going on over at the Authority?

Stay tuned.

Alexander Haig, who said 'i am in charge' in 1981, passes on

Alexander Haig passed away today at 85 years old at 1:30 AM at Johns Hopkins Hospital in Baltimore.

Alexander Haig was famous for the statment 'I am in charge', as presented in the Associated Press video below. Alexander Haig, or "Al Haig" as the four-star general was called, was next in the chain of command of the United States (even though there was no formal declaration of his position) after Ronald Reagan was shot and hospitalized by John Hinkley's 1981 assassination attempt. At the time of the AP video, Haig was reported to be in critical condition:



This video presents the events that led up to the President Reagan assassination attempt, Hinkley's desire to "get Reagan" because he was trying to get the attention of actress Jody Foster, and Alexander Haig's role in taking over for the ailing President as Secretary of State:



At the time, this blogger remembers a fear that Haig was grabbing power and was going to do something rash like push the nuclear button against the Soviet Union.



 Then, President Reagan was just 68 days into office, cold war tensions were heating up, and there was a constant fear of the ignition of World War III. Alexander Haig's assent just heightened those fears. Fortunately they didn't come to pass.

Alexander Haig played a major role in American Presidential history. In the video below, Haig talks to then-President Reagan about the Vietnam War information leak called "The Pentagon Papers".

 The conversation came after Nixon appointed Haig as the person to direct wiretaps of government officials and news reporters:



After his unfortunate statement and coupled with his role in the Pentagon Papers, Alexander Haig spent part of life essentially trying to overcome the awful image he crafted for himself as a warmonger. But Haig's ties to the Nixon Administration and his outspoken and aggressive views on American Foreign Policy, countered that.

In the video below made in 2006, Alexander Haig, then the Director of the Nixon Library, made statements about not just media power ("the modernization of information technology has created a power in the press that's unprecedented") but what he claims is its involvement in the approval of the Iraq War effort after 9-11.



Haig's comments, in the first 1:30 of the video, are telling in that they confirm claims that much of the mainstream media was supporting George W. Bush's Iraq War effort by issuing "pro war" reports.

As Haig aged, I think he took on a more realistic and far less ideological view of the World, and American Government's role in it. That coupled with his experience makes any video of an interview with Alexander Haig required viewing for students of American politics and foreign policy.

Max Lager's in downtown Atlanta's like "Cheers"

I first discovered Max Lager's "American Grill & Brewery" when I was trying to find a place to meet up with a friend in Atlanta about, oh, 4 years ago. It was a large, yet homey kind of establishment with great food and a lot of beer.

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This time, I decided to return to Max Lager's, and I'm really glad I did. I met the owner, Alan LeBlanc who's in the picture with me, and the person who took it, Chris Merle, is fron Tucson, Arizona and was in town for a programmer's conference. If you're guessing that we talked about Star Trek, you're right. I can't imagine what in this post would ever give that away?

Max Lager's reminds me of the fictional bar "Cheers" where everyone knows your name, and you're always glad you came!

Cool place. Nice time. G reat food.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Winter Olympics super athlete Gretchen Bleiler's at MakeItPro.com

The Winter Olympics has given new light to American athletes who have a good Internet footprint. One of them - Olympics star Gretchen Bleiler - calls her social network home MakeItPro.com.



To be sure, the super-hot, super sexy, super athletic and newly married snowboarding star that is Gretchen Bleiler has her own website and any number of blogs, but it's at MakeItPro.com where Bleiler best connects with her fans and friends.

But what's MakeItPro.com?

MakeItPro.com is a one-year-old Facebook-style social networking website that's specifically designed for athletes. The site is ran by Founder and President Jill Osur and a 15-person staff based out of Walnut Creek in the San Francisco Bay Area. This blogger has known Jill since 1991 and watched her build the social network from a few pages in a beta format to where it is today.

From the start, Jill wanted to feature Olympic athletes, and really admired Gretchen Bleiler. Now, Gretchen Bleiler's featured at MakeItPro.com and was the first athlete to be placed in the site in 2009.

Bleiler's also part of MakeItPro.com's "Olympic Zone" which is billed as a place that "features the latest Olympic coverage from Vancouver, as well as schedules, team rosters and more." But what's really just plain neat about MakeItPro.com is it's free to join and you're just a click away from the awesome American athlete and Olympics hero that is Gretchen Bleiler. Check her out at out and send her a message of thanks for representing the U.S.A.

And if you need direction by now, just click here: Gretchen Bleiler at MakeItPro.com.

Tiger Woods speech today - Gloria Allred and Joslyn James respond



Tiger Woods speech, poll, transcript.

Tiger Woods finished his 13-minute speech of apology today, and while many applaud Tiger Woods' speech and his honesty, there's one person not buying it: Gloria Allred. Allred, the famous Los Angeles civil rights lawyer, is representing two of Tiger Woods' former mistresses, Rachel Uchitel and Joslyn James (Veronica Siwik-Daniels). Thus, Allred has a unique axe to grind.

Here's the video of Allred's response:

 

Holding her own LA press conference, Allred was not kind. She called it a "disgrace" and said..

"I just watched Tiger Woods' apology on television, and he said that many people believed in him. He also said he wanted to make amends. He did not apologize by name to my client, Veronica, and I ask, why no apology? Veronica had a three year romantic relationship with Tiger Woods."


Then Allred went on to list what Tiger Woods said to her and the other actions he took. "And yet he did not acknowledge their relationship today." In a tearfully-read statement, Veronica said that all she wanted was a telephone apology.

Gloria Allred says Tiger Woods needs "lying rehab" more than sex rehab. But didn't Veronica Siwik-Daniels enter into the relationship knowing that he was married with children? This brings up more questions than answers. Does Joslyn James / Veronica Siwik-Daniels plan to sue Tiger Woods?

Stay tuned.

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Tiger Woods speech today - Tiger Woods speech poll, transcript



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Tiger Woods gave his long awaited speech today. The Tiger Woods speech featured an honest, forthright, angry, combative, sad, and intense Tiger Woods; a combination this blogger has not seen before. Regardless of what John Daly or Gloria Allred say, Woods is believable. His speech was not a stunt or a photo-op.

Tiger Woods said "I'm deeply sorry for my irresponsible and my selfish behavior I engaged in," and that started a 13-minutes journey the World took with "The World's Greatest Golfer" as Tiger Woods went on to confess that it was indeed him who was involved in all of those many affairs, about 13 in all. (But 12 of them after he was married to Elin Nordegren in 2004.)

CBS News Video:



Tiger Woods came clear today, but he's in no way back to any solid state of mental health at this point. He's not heeled. He's sad and also angry - very angry. His greatest anger was reserved for the media and how it followed his wife, mother, and kids in a desperate search for photo ops and interviews. He was also angry with those who reported and blogged that his wife hit him (this blogger was one of those who did), and says it was not true at all.



Tiger Woods displayed an enormous well of pent-up anger, but just what he will do with it is any one's guess. Tiger Woods should not forget that for all of the public reactions to him and his family, it was something that started with his actions. If he realizes that, the anger will subside and he will get on with the business of being true to his wife. If anyone can muster the focus necessary to get back on track, Tiger Woods can.

What's your view? Here's a transscript of Woods speech, the video's above and a poll's below and just before the transcript. Share your view, or make a video at YouTube and me know about it.

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Tiger Woods transcript from ASAP Sports:


PGA TOUR: TIGER WOODS STATEMENT

February 19, 2010

Tiger Woods


TIGER WOODS: Good morning, and thank you for joining me. Many of you in this room are my friends. Many of you in this room know me. Many of you have cheered for me or you've worked with me or you've supported me.
Now every one of you has good reason to be critical of me. I want to say to each of you, simply and directly, I am deeply sorry for my irresponsible and selfish behavior I engaged in.
I know people want to find out how I could be so selfish and so foolish. People want to know how I could have done these things to my wife Elin and to my children. And while I have always tried to be a private person, there are some things I want to say.
Elin and I have started the process of discussing the damage caused by my behavior. As Elin pointed out to me, my real apology to her will not come in the form of words; it will come from my behavior over time. We have a lot to discuss; however, what we say to each other will remain between the two of us.
I am also aware of the pain my behavior has caused to those of you in this room. I have let you down, and I have let down my fans. For many of you, especially my friends, my behavior has been a personal disappointment. To those of you who work for me, I have let you down personally and professionally. My behavior has caused considerable worry to my business partners.
To everyone involved in my foundation, including my staff, board of directors, sponsors, and most importantly, the young students we reach, our work is more important than ever. Thirteen years ago, my dad and I envisioned helping young people achieve their dreams through education. This work remains unchanged and will continue to grow. From the Learning Center students in Southern California to the Earl Woods scholars in Washington, D.C., millions of kids have changed their lives, and I am dedicated to making sure that continues.
But still, I know I have bitterly disappointed all of you. I have made you question who I am and how I could have done the things I did. I am embarrassed that I have put you in this position.
For all that I have done, I am so sorry.
I have a lot to atone for, but there is one issue I really want to discuss. Some people have speculated that Elin somehow hurt or attacked me on Thanksgiving night. It angers me that people would fabricate a story like that. Elin never hit me that night or any other night. There has never been an episode of domestic violence in our marriage, ever. Elin has shown enormous grace and poise throughout this ordeal. Elin deserves praise, not blame.
The issue involved here was my repeated irresponsible behavior. I was unfaithful. I had affairs. I cheated. What I did is not acceptable, and I am the only person to blame.
I stopped living by the core values that I was taught to believe in. I knew my actions were wrong, but I convinced myself that normal rules didn't apply. I never thought about who I was hurting. Instead, I thought only about myself. I ran straight through the boundaries that a married couple should live by. I thought I could get away with whatever I wanted to. I felt that I had worked hard my entire life and deserved to enjoy all the temptations around me. I felt I was entitled. Thanks to money and fame, I didn't have to go far to find them.
I was wrong. I was foolish. I don't get to play by different rules. The same boundaries that apply to everyone apply to me. I brought this shame on myself. I hurt my wife, my kids, my mother, my wife's family, my friends, my foundation, and kids all around the world who admired me.
I've had a lot of time to think about what I've done. My failures have made me look at myself in a way I never wanted to before. It's now up to me to make amends, and that starts by never repeating the mistakes I've made. It's up to me to start living a life of integrity.
I once heard, and I believe it's true, it's not what you achieve in life that matters; it's what you overcome. Achievements on the golf course are only part of setting an example. Character and decency are what really count.
Parents used to point to me as a role model for their kids. I owe all those families a special apology. I want to say to them that I am truly sorry.
It's hard to admit that I need help, but I do. For 45 days from the end of December to early February, I was in inpatient therapy receiving guidance for the issues I'm facing. I have a long way to go. But I've taken my first steps in the right direction.
As I proceed, I understand people have questions. I understand the press wants to ask me for the details and the times I was unfaithful. I understand people want to know whether Elin and I will remain together. Please know that as far as I'm concerned, every one of these questions and answers is a matter between Elin and me. These are issues between a husband and a wife.
Some people have made up things that never happened. They said I used performance-enhancing drugs. This is completely and utterly false. Some have written things about my family. Despite the damage I have done, I still believe it is right to shield my family from the public spotlight. They did not do these things; I did.
I have always tried to maintain a private space for my wife and children. They have been kept separate from my sponsors, my commercial endorsements. When my children were born, we only released photographs so that the paparazzi could not chase them. However, my behavior doesn't make it right for the media to follow my two-and-a-half-year-old daughter to school and report the school's location. They staked out my wife and they pursued my mom. Whatever my wrongdoings, for the sake of my family, please leave my wife and kids alone.
I recognize I have brought this on myself, and I know above all I am the one who needs to change. I owe it to my family to become a better person. I owe it to those closest to me to become a better man. That's where my focus will be.
I have a lot of work to do, and I intend to dedicate myself to doing it. Part of following this path for me is Buddhism, which my mother taught me at a young age. People probably don't realize it, but I was raised a Buddhist, and I actively practiced my faith from childhood until I drifted away from it in recent years. Buddhism teaches that a craving for things outside ourselves causes an unhappy and pointless search for security. It teaches me to stop following every impulse and to learn restraint. Obviously I lost track of what I was taught.
As I move forward, I will continue to receive help because I've learned that's how people really do change. Starting tomorrow, I will leave for more treatment and more therapy. I would like to thank my friends at Accenture and the players in the field this week for understanding why I'm making these remarks today.
In therapy I've learned the importance of looking at my spiritual life and keeping in balance with my professional life. I need to regain my balance and be centered so I can save the things that are most important to me, my marriage and my children.
That also means relying on others for help. I've learned to seek support from my peers in therapy, and I hope someday to return that support to others who are seeking help. I do plan to return to golf one day, I just don't know when that day will be.
I don't rule out that it will be this year. When I do return, I need to make my behavior more respectful of the game. In recent weeks I have received many thousands of emails, letters and phone calls from people expressing good wishes. To everyone who has reached out to me and my family, thank you. Your encouragement means the world to Elin and me.
I want to thank the PGA TOUR, Commissioner Finchem, and the players for their patience and understanding while I work on my private life. I look forward to seeing my fellow players on the course.
Finally, there are many people in this room, and there are many people at home who believed in me. Today I want to ask for your help. I ask you to find room in your heart to one day believe in me again.
Thank you.

End of FastScripts

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Joe Stack - Austin Texas plane crash suicide; Why?



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The reasons for the actions aside, Joe Stack left 13 injured, 2 dead in Thursday's Austin, Texas crash suicide. The question everyone is asking is why? But unlike Amy Bishop, who left no note and is alive in jail, Joe Stack left a long note, and is dead.

By now, the pattern emerges of a person who was angry with the IRS, unhappy with Austin, Texas, and sad because of his own misfortunes in life. But that doesn't explain what set Joe Stack to aim an airplane into an Austin, Texas building. While Joe Stack was angry with the IRS, there's no hard evidence that Stack was formally involved with the Tea Party Movement.



A more rounded, human picture of Joe Stack is emerging. Stack was a guitarist who played in the Billy Eil Band, and while photos of his association with the group have been removed, the action was done after they were posted online and clues about him remain. 

"Joe Stack – Bass, Vocals, Accordion on Spook Lights of Marfa" appear on the website. That means whatever ills Joe Stack carried around with him, he used music to help him cope with life.

Joe Stack was by all appearances a normal person getting along in life. He was married, had friends, was employed, and played more than one band...and by accounts not badly.



The recollections that appear from those acquainted with Stack were that "He seemed incredibly decent and mild-mannered" as Patrick Beach wrote in The Austin American Stateman.

Pat Beach was shocked and Billy Eli couldn't believe it. According to Beach, Eli said:

"He was the most sort of even-keeled and sane person I ever played with. I know everybody says that, but it's true. He was just a normal-seeming guy. I never heard him raise his voice."

Eli's band wasn't the only one Joe Stack played in. Stack was also a member of an Austin-based band called The Last Straw. On their MySpace page, the band wrote "We found a great keyboardist named Joe Stack."

It's hard to find any example of anyone who had anything bad to say about Joe Stack. Michael Cerza, who talked to Pat Beach for his column, said this:


"My impression of Joe was a kind, quiet, not at all brooding or taciturn person," Cerza said. "I didn't sense anything boiling under the surface. He was very pleased to get married again, I know that. There was no indication in his actions or his words that he would harm anyone. And then he crashes into a building full of strangers, innocent people. I can't make those ends meet in my mind. The madness of the times, maybe."


Just exactly what made Joe Stack reach that boiling point, that edge he wrote of being close to where he set his home on fire with his wife and daughter in it, and crashed a plane into a building, is not known as of this writing.

Joe Stack seemed normal. But then so did George Sodoni, who, last August 2009, went into a fitness club and shot women, after writing a web-based rant on his inability to get laid. And so did Dr. Amy Bishop, who , last Friday, got up and shot three of her University of Alabama-Huntsville colleagues in cold blood, then seemed to deny it ever happened.

Something is really wrong.

Stay tuned.

Congress prefers being lazy to being leaders

A year into President Obama's first term it's obvious Congress is in no hurry to pass reforms, so citizens live with growing risks and financial burdens. "We the People" are supposed to be in control of our government, but our needs are being trampled by a combination of one party largely posturing for political points and digging in their heels, while lobbyists use special interest money to shave off just enough votes from the other party to keep progress at an effective standstill.

Leaving the system as it's always been is laziness, not leadership. That kind of "leadership" would mean we were still colonies of European countries, if not living in caves.

Inaction and apathy rarely help when confronting a crisis; both the runaway costs and growing numbers of uninsured Americans, arguably fostered by flagrant profiteering of health care insurance companies, are parts of the crisis.

The U.S.A. has some of the best doctors, nurses, and medical training facilities in the world, yet a few greedy corporations are exploiting the system at the expense of our standard of living today. To insure that grip on our money, they spend money collected from customers to lobby in D.C. -- well over $1 million every day!

Is Congress hoping to leave this vast, profitable industry to self-regulate, the way they did with Wall Street? Are they really expecting advice from people hoping to make a profit will build a system that protects you and me? Putting solutions off is not only lazy, it burdens out children.
The sooner we fix how we pay for our health care the better off we'll all be. The founding fathers had the courage to face unpleasant truths and act despite the very real risk to their lives by opposing the King of England and his military legions. Are the people in Congress today opposing health care insurance changes scared to face down one money-making industry, or simply greedy?


Thomas Hayes
is an entrepreneur, journalist, and political analyst who contributes regularly to a host of web sites on topics ranging from economics and politics to culture and community.

Julia Mancuso wins second Silver Medal in Olympics

Julia Mancuso, the American female skier who on Wednesday collected the Silver Medal in the Women's Downhill race at the Vancouver Winter Olympic Games, earned another one Thursday in the "Women's Super Combined" according to the LA Times.



And where Julia Mancuso finished just .56 seconds (that's point-five-six) behind teammate Lindsey Vonn yesterday, Mancuso was ahead of Vonn today.

Lindsey Vonn has an unfortunate end to the Women's Super Combined, as she fell during the slalom run. The Gold Medal went to Germany's Maria Riesch (reportedly Vonn's good friend) while Sweden's Anja Paerson won the Bronze Medal.

Now, Mancuso has entered what ESPN's Howard Bryant calls "The Star Club". Mancuso, who won a Gold Medal in the giants slalom at the Toronto 2006 Games, was considered a dark horse known more for her sexy photos than for celebrity status as a pure skier. But all of that is in the past, except the photos and the lingerie line, which should sell at a high rate in the wake of her amazing win.

Julia Mancuso has a heavy Bay Area connection. The Squaw Valley-dweller's grandparents and four aunts all live in Marin County.

Stay tuned.

KSFO's Lee Rogers out; KRON alleged problems Richard Lieberman focus

UPDATE: Anthony Licciardi of KSFO Marketing explained via email that the change from Lee Rogers to Brian Sussman and the addition of John Batchelor were just "a natural transition. Brian has done a great job filling in for the days that Lee was not on the show and it was just time. Nothing more to read into."

Reports that KSFO's Lee Rogers is out and that KRON has alleged problems causing its decline are the focus of Richard Lieberman's blog "The Rich Lieberman Report.

The Lee Rogers departure story is big. Lieberman reports:

Veteran KSFO morning personality, Lee Rodgers, has been let go at the Citadel-owned, right-wing talk station, it has now been confirmed. Weeknight host, Brian Sussman will replace Rodgers. KSFO is the sister station of KGO radio.

Attempts to reach station management were unsuccessful. On KSFO's web site, Rodgers is not listed on its weekday schedule, and an independent source close to the station, told me, via e-mail, that Rodgers "was out."


With Rogers reported departure, it looks like the end of "Hot Talk" 560 radio. This was their promotional commercial from 2007:



Richard Lieberman reports on Bay Area Media (I keep telling him to go national). He's here's:

SF Cultural Trends Examiner, and here at Rich Lieberman Report.

Stay tuned.